End of a Relationship

“It is human to err, but to forgive is divine” is what he read on the wall across the street. He looked away, lost in his thoughts about how could he forgive her? 

She had lost all sense of humaneness when she told him she wanted to leave him on their third anniversary. It was not because she was attracted to another man. Yes she was attracted to another man, but it was not because of that. 

It was simply because this was not the life she had hoped to have with him. She aspired for more out of life, more money, more comfort, a higher status, her career booming, it was all over the place and she was getting none of that from the life she had with him. 

It was not that she did not love him, it was just that she loved herself more. It was a cliche, and that was exactly that. 

Human aspirations are a cliche he thought, but he could not understand what was to be done now. He was jobless at the moment and she was paying the bills and she had run into an old flame a few weeks before she reached this decision. 

Life was plotting to eject him from her life and he had nothing to make a stand. He did the only thing he could and broke down in a heap in their bed less studio apartment. 

He did not know what would come next, he just felt like someone had cut him in the gut and refused to take him to the hospital. He had never seen this ruthless side of her. He knew she was ambitious and could be selfish and greedy, but this was a shock to his system. 

It was hard on him no doubt, but what he wondered was, why was it so easy for her? Was he just a meal ticket to her aspirations? She had not grown up rich, and had a troubled childhood, so maybe her aspirations were her way out of the mess she grew up in. 

He heard her say “I feel sorry for you” before he slipped into a haze and could hear nothing and feel nothing. He was in a limbo, the world ceased to exist around him and he was confronted with waves of confusion. His mind had taken leave of him and he just stared at the wall across him which said, “It is human to err, but to forgive is divine.” 

He came back from the surreal feeling he had just had and said, “How about we just live together till we sort it out? You can live your independent life and I will live mine. I have nowhere to go, so...” 

She did not expect such desperation from him but neither did she console him. This was a way out for her, to live her life the way she wanted and not carry any guilt while doing so. 

He would regret the offer he had made to her in time. Karma has a way of making us dig our own grave when it comes to that. 

He knew he had lost her, and he lost himself every time she was out with her lover. He had no options, he was just suffering, it would get better and then worse and then even worse. He knew he had lost her, but did not believe that it had ended. 

This was his karma and there was nothing he could do about it, but live it out till life had given him what he needed to experience and freed him of the unfinished Karma he had with her.

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